6 Days to go – My last week in Kansas

Oh my goodness it’s so close I can taste it. There’s so many emotions. So much to do.

Sadness: The hardest thing about leaving the country to go on an adventure is leaving behind the things that mean the most to you – the people. I am leaving behind my family, my friends, my boyfriend, everyone. I will be isolated in a new world. Leaving is hard, and until this week, I hadn’t realized that the beginning of this adventure is the putting on hold of another one.

Relief: Thankfully, a student at my new school did her own study abroad trip to Emporia last semester so I will have a familiar face. I will be met as soon as I get to Jyvaskyla by a student tutor who will be there to help me get comfortable. I’ve already met one of my new roommates through facebook and I have a feeling we will get along really well. I also will have a neighbor from North Carolina, so there’s at least one person in town from the US! And lastly, I was just told today that I’ve been matched with a Finnish Friendship Family and I’m so excited to meet them. They are a family in the town with three musically talented elementary school girls and I will be able to learn so much from them about what “normal” looks like in Finland. So, even though I’m leaving behind amazing people, I am so relieved to know that I will meet so many more amazing people from the moment I step foot on foreign ground. 

Anxiety: What if I get so overwhelmed that I give up? Nothing will be familiar. The weather will be strange, the culture will be strange, the school will be strange. The city speaks Finnish, my roommates are French, and as far as I can tell, there’s only one other American going to the school at all. What if it’s all too weird? What if I run out of money? What if I get lost? What if my stuff gets lost? No one likes to face these thoughts but it is something I have to battle with. I have faith God’s watching over me. I really believe everything will be okay. But there is so much that could go wrong, and there’s even a chance that I’m in too far over my head and I just won’t like it.

Excitement: I have dreamt of traveling the world since I was in about fifth grade. I’ve had it in my head I would study abroad to Finland since junior or senior year of high school. One of the things I inherited from my Slytherin mom is the drive to realize my dreams. To make the world my own and make what I want happen. I said I would do this, and now I’m doing it. In 6 days, this dream I’ve had locked in my dream vault will no longer just be a dream, it will be happening. 

So anyways, that’s just a glimpse of the emotional rollercoaster that is preparing to study abroad. I know it won’t get any more stable any time soon, but I also know it will be okay.

Between packing, making sure the bank knows I’m going, and figuring out what to do about my cell phone, I’ve had a lot of final detail things to take care of this week. I’ve also got a lot of people to say “see ya later” to. So far I’ve only cried about it once, but it is only Tuesday.

The bulging Christmas box that is my future is about to burst open and I really hope what’s inside is beautiful. Six more days. And then Finland is my home.

“There are no limits to what you can achieve on your journey through life, except in your mind.” ― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

 

2 thoughts on “6 Days to go – My last week in Kansas

  1. I love you, my Ravenclaw daughter. You will be great at this! I’m not sure I like the word, “isolated” where you used it. We’ll have technology to utilize. I’m sure it will be helpful to face time once in awhile. Can’t wait to experience Finland through you my dear. I love you!

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  2. Our prayers will be there with you. You will not be alone in your adventure. God will be there to listen to your needs. Just ask. He will be there to guide you, just ask. He will be there to wrap you with hugs. Just ask. He will be there to keep you safe. Just ask. Remember, He should be First in your mind, for He is the Life and Love of everything good. I love you and wish this to be the best adventure you have imagined. I hope you will find time to let us know how your adventure us going sometime soon. Sending our hugs to see you off for this great opportunity.
    Yia yia H.

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